new poem

[cbluejays]

THE TREE

I know it's there,
I can make out its silhouette
outlined against the maroon and
purple shaded sunset.  
But although I can gaze upon it,
when I reach out to touch it,
I find it just out of my grasp.
Still, I place all my hopes and dreams
on that lonely tree, hoping it will
provide them a home, just as it
does for the sparrows.
As I move closer to it, drawing near,
I begin to notice its faults.
It was so beautiful, perfect even, when
all I saw was the silhouette.
Now, I simply look in disappointment
at it's plainess, and its bare, lifeless branches.
All I can do is take one whist-full look back,
thinking of what it could have been.
Then I move on past it, onto the next
solitary, outlined form that will appear
over the horizon.

[Josh]

Oh, that's a nice one, bro.

[enemy anemone]

I like it too and can relate.

[cbluejays]

Thanks.  Glad you liked it.  

This was another poem that I got inspired for on a long bus trip back home...it was at sunset, and here in Nebraska, one can see for miles and miles...and out in the distance, against the backdrop of the sunset I saw one lone tree, just standing there...I thought to myself how beautiful that scene was, then as we got close to it, and I actually saw it, it was just a small tree, with no leaves and some deformed branches.  But that's how I am with a lot of areas in my life...For example, before I get to know someone (particularly with pretty girls), I'll have the image of them being almost perfect...then, once I get to know them, I realize how many flaws and faults they have, or how plain they are...it's really unfair of me, to have that expectation on them in the first place.  Also, this applies to goals I've set or tried to reach for myself...for example, I wanted to make the all-state honorable mention list for basketball last year.  All my work went into that.  It was like, if I can make that team, everything I did was worth it.  Then, at the end of the year, I end up making it, but it was really worth nothing...once I finally reached my goal, it was just a disappointment, because it didn't fulfill me, or make me a better person, or improve my life in any way.  

I've found that really that only thing I can set my hopes on that won't disappoint me or leave me wanting more in the end is Jesus Christ.  Of course, even though I've found that, I'm still stupid, and try to fulfill my life with other trivial things, which only disappoint me in the end.